My Lord, I fail again. Fail to prove my love for You. Fail to show others that You are the only Person I’ll ever needed. Fail to please You. Fail my promise to be a good friend. Fail in loving others.
Am I a total failure?
Maybe in Your eyes, I am not. But in my eyes, I am truly a disappointment, a failure, a good-for-nothing and an unimpressive girl. Perhaps, in the eyes of others, I’m worst than all these – merely a speck of dust whose existence is unimportant.
My Lord, all I want in life is a life with You. To experience You to the fullest. To stay close to You every second of everyday. Because I really love You, and there is nothing else that I desire besides having You right by my side.
You know my heart through and through. Yes, sometimes I may dream of being in the arms of someone, but Lord, I so much hope that that someone would be You and no other! No one could ever satisfy my every need but You. No one could understand me like You do. No one could ever take Your place. And You know that I learn to love others because I loved You.
My life totally evolves around You ever since the day You took my heart away.
Lord, do You know that it hurts me when people are trying to separate You from me? They told me that it is impossible for me to love You alone. They told me that the best thing I should do is to move on, find a guy and settle down. They told me that it’s a silly idea to think about giving my life to You. They also said that I am just having too many fantasies that are unrealistic and that would never come true. Are they right?
Dear Lord, please teach me how to stay faithful to You, as You are faithful to me. Teach me how to see You in everyone I meet. Teach me how to love like You love. Teach me to be patient and merciful like You are. Teach me to be more like You. Because I am hopeless without You. Lord, no matter what other people may say about me, be it good or bad, teach me to trust in Your love for me that has never died.
Please stay with me Lord, and never let me go. Ever. Please promise me, dear Lord, that You will never let me go, come what may.
2 comments:
I know this is your post of many months ago but somehow it is so timely for me..it's like i am expressing myself through this love letter of yours to God
Hi Angeline,
Wow, how did you find this blog of mine? This post isn't just "many months ago", but many years ago! Haha.
I've somehow abandoned this one. Too many blogs to update, fairly being able to manage. But I thought I'd just leave it here, so that when I come back to these old posts, I'd be able to see if I've made any progress in this journey with Him.
Anyway, thank you so much for reading!
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