Being wanted...

I’m not supposed to write anything right now at this hour at work, but I couldn’t help it, Father. You know everything that has happened. But Father, if I don’t get this expressed on paper, I may forget all about it within a short time.

My colleagues and I were exchanging emails and we were discussing the barbeque that we’ve planned to celebrate Christmas together, although not all of them are Christians. Unfortunately, the time they proposed to go to the beach clashed with my time to meet my Spiritual Director. I was determined to see my Spiritual Director as I don’t get to see her often. If I miss this chance, I don’t know when is the next time she’s available and able to travel down to town again. So I asked them to go ahead with their plan without me; I didn’t want to spoil their plan.
Later, when I met two of them face to face separately, they were both quite upset. “But it’s not fun without you!” Both of them said the same thing to me although they are seated far away from each other.

I was deeply touched. Perhaps, for the first time, I felt that I am wanted and treasured. Yes, first time, indeed. I’ve never felt wanted before, not even when I’m with the youths! I’ve never complained about it as I knew that Your companionship is more satisfying and cannot be replaced. But Lord, this feeling of being wanted by others is so overwhelming! For once I understood how it feels to be an important person to someone else. And I thank You Lord for this precious experience.

This must be the reason You told us to be kind to everyone. To make others feel that they are wanted; to give them a sense of belonging; to allow You to make use of us to radiate Your love and care, showing them who You, the Lord of Mercy and Compassion really are.
Thank You, Father, for the love You have shown me. I love You too!