To belong

Father dear,

I thank You for bringing me home safe and sound. I thank You too, for the fellowship I've enjoyed with my Christian colleagues.

Lord, one question from me... which group of friends do I belong to?

I felt rather disappointed when they laughed at me for revealing to the instructors that I am a SCUBA diver. They said, it was funny because I had problem using the EBS, which is quite similar to that of SCUBA.

Father, why can't they be more understanding? Why can't they see the fear I had? Instead of making fun of me, why can't they kindly ask for my problems? It was not just a total humiliation, it further causes me to hate speaking.

Father, can I just stay quiet all the time? I don't feel there's any necessity to speak, since no one is willing to listen. And besides, I think I only talk about craps most of the time, so what is point for me to speak? You see, even my own dad refuse to listen to my explanation on the purgatory and end times. He said I was wrong on both, but how can I be wrong when all these teachings come from the Pope?

Father, I don't know. I want to make up my mind to stop being so talkative. What do you think? I'm never a good speaker, so maybe You might spare me from having to talk in front of an audience.

Thanks for listening to me, my Lord, please protect me tonight as I take a rest. Thank You!!